Love It Or Leave It Be

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Love It Or Leave It Be

Breanna Christine. I have a lot of hobbies but mostly like playing with photography and learning different languages. I read actual books. I am a camera and music enthusiast. Love my Lakers. If your curious about anything else just ask.

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I am addicted. So much yumminess all in one Tofurky dog <3

Late night grocery shopping just feels oh so right! Hoping to get 50 Shades Darker if there is any money left over. Target has the 50 Shades trilogy for $12.75 each. So maybe I can get the last two books for $30. Sweet deal if you ask me.

So after 4 days I am back.

I feel better. I haven’t been able to volunteer just yet because of high gas prices but I WILL do it. Maybe Monday. During my 4 day hiatus I have been reading a lot more then usual, cooking more, relaxing more, … and well just more of everything. I also figured out that I am too much of a people pleaser. I have always excepted myself but then I have always wanted others to say they excepted me. I know. BIG faux pas. Live and learn. My only great personal accomplishment was remaining abstinent, in which I mean restraining from sex. No. I am not a virgin. I mean it has been quite some time since I last had a sex. Personally I am very damn proud of myself. I don’t have to worry about taking the pill or getting pregnant. I am not against the pill because it does it’s purpose but I just hate taking any kind of pill in general. When I eventually do decide to have sex again it will be with a person I am in a relationship with. I don’t do one night stands. I was temped once about two years ago by this guy I liked at the time. He was nice looking but I liked his personality. Long story short I wanted to have sex with him (I made it VERY clear) but he apparently didn’t want sex so he turned me down. Turned out to be the best decision I never made ;) . He ended up with someone who I knew which shocked me. A couple day ago I saw a recent picture of him and I literally laughed. Like tears streaming down my face. After that I was REALLY happy I didn’t do it with him.

Bottom line is I have made mistakes just like every human being on this earth. I won some and I lost some. I know I am a kind person. My family are the only people who will understand my sense of humor and other things about me. Those are the only people who should know. Unless I get married to a guy who, by that point, will know know who I really am 100%. So until then I am very happy with who I am I don’t need anyone elses seal of approval.

I have no idea what I feel. I do have feelings though. I wonder all the damn time about how I will construct myself for that day. As far as I’ve learned I wonder too far and day dreaming about events I want to happen … in chronological order which is quite over done. I do feel inscrutable at times. The butterflies in my stomach tying knots. So with that said I am taking a hiatus for awhile and I will be volunteering at my local elderly center. I really love old people. They know so much and have experienced so much in their many years on this earth. I NEED wisdom bestowed upon me. I need to have people literally smarter then I am and not smart ass people. Smart ass people and their mouths make me squirm in disgust. I know. I live with one. I might not be employed but I am willing to work for nothing just so I can get my ass out of this house. Wish me luck!

p.s,

I don’t exactly know how long I may be off but I guess you’ll know because … well … I wont be posting anything.

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6 more chapters left

WARNING: Only for those who are reading past chapters 6 & 7

Seriously. I warned you and you won’t understand anyways.

Yup. I am starting to realize that I have NEVER published blog entries like this before I started reading the book. Ok,ok. I have but not as much or intense as my Fifty Shades of Gray entries. I think I only posted one sorta like my recent entries but that was because I was listening to Enigma while on my blog and you saw how that turned out.

Anyways, as the title says I am on my last six chapters of the first book and I have to say that Christian is starting to really anger/scare me. I mean I am angery or I guess you can say frustrated because he is unrelenting on his fear of having people he is intimate with touch him. I am this far long in the book after only a day or two of buying it and I thought after a couple chapters he would sorta give in just a smidgen but no. He is a hard headed brute asswhole. He is OBVIOUSLY in love with this women who has ‘bewitched’ him and yet…. blah!

I am scared because he is way way too controlling in their fucked up relationship. If he see’s her with another guy other then her dad he jumps to conclusions. If she is driving a car that she has had for only three years he buys her a car. A good one I might add. I mean after twenty chapters I know a little but of why he is the way he is but I mean come on. Christian Gray is relentless. He doesn’t want anyone controlling him. GAH! It pisses me off.

Any thoughts for those who are as far as I am or already done?

Anonymous asked: reading your comments about 50 shades of grey makes me want to read it now. Dare I say you are giving me feelings?

Aw. Lol. You should read it. It’s a good wild read. I give you feelings?